Breathing…

Inhale…
Exhale…

My body is starting to become unstable, I’m starting to shake. Slowly, I can feel myself perspiring. It was hot. For my fragile built, this position is very very hard. I feel like my whole body is already wet because of my non stop sweating.

Inhale, exhale… deep inhale… long exhale…

Yoga…

I checked google maps for the venue… Century Plaza Makati… there it is! Just 2 blocks away from Greenbelt 1 and 5. I smiled, I know the place. I will not have a hard time looking for the venue. But I’m still not sure whether if I really want to attend the yoga class. I’m still thinking about the advice of my gym instructor which is to just spend my time in the gym instead of attending a yoga session which will actually bring me a step closer to my real goal… gain weight.

After an hour of thinking, I am convinced. I’ll stick to working out, my gym instructor is right… I need to gain weight! So I grabbed my phone and asked him what time will he be available to train me since I messaged him last night canceling our 6pm appointment. To my dismay, he didn’t reply. Maybe he is was still sleeping so I waited.

It was almost lunch when I finally got a reply from him. But to my dismay, he told me that he is already fully booked for the day and he’ll just train me the next day. Hmmmm… maybe this means that I really need to attend the yoga class. And so I message the yoga instructor and confirmed the time and venue of the class after which I geared up.

I arrived early so I decided to stay in the nearby ministop. I was nervous. I feel like my heart wants to escape from my chest and go home. I’m a yoga-virgin and I don’t know what to expect. My phone vibrated and it was the instructor telling me that he is in Greenbelt and is just waiting for another participant before they go to the venue. I replied back saying I’m just nearby. After a few more minutes, he messaged me again saying they are on their way to Century Plaza. I took a deep breath and told myself… “nandito ka na, wala nang back-outan to…” , I grabbed my bag and left the store…

The elevator opened. This is it, I told myself. I stepped out of the lift and screened the area. Well ventilated. The air comes in and out freely of the area, of course, its the penthouse! The instructor introduced himself and vise versa, he also introduced me to the other participant who is sitting on a sofa. As the participants arrive one by one, the instructor introduced me to them. I felt….awkward? Or I guess I was shy… They already know each other and I think I’m the only one who is going to do it first time. OMG!!! I started to panic. What if I mess up? What if the session will be delayed because of me? So many things ran in my mind. I was asked to answer a questionnaire which is about my health for the past 4 weeks. I took my time in answering so that I will be busy while waiting for us to start. We started around 230pm and all in all, there were 6 participants. I was somehow relieved because a few more addition will really make me more nervous. Then there we are, sitting in our mats… ready to begin…

Inhale…
exhale…
stretch….

Breath in, breath out… concentrate on your breathing… I felt… quiet… relaxed… peaceful. It has been a long time since the last time I listened to myself breathing… actually this is the first time. I never listened to my breathing, I took it for granted. As I was stretching my legs, arms, body…. and as I was concentrating on my breathing… It made me more realise that I’m still alive…. I have a life to live…… I’m still…. breathing… and I can hear it…

Inhale…
Exhale…

My body is starting to become unstable, I’m starting to shake. Slowly, I can feel myself perspiring. It was hot. For my fragile built, this position is very very hard. I feel like my whole body is already wet because of my non stop sweating.

Inhale, exhale… deep inhale… long exhale…

I went home physically tired… but empowered. Most of the time, we take our lives for granted and do the things that we want without really thinking of its effect to our body… to our life. This is the lesson I learned from today’s session though it’s not really part of the agenda. I’m already looking forward to the next session…