Archive for July, 2010

Rain

Posted in etc, Personal, pozzie life with tags , , , , on July 25, 2010 by iamhivpositive

I woke up to a bright and sunny morning… until the clouds started to get darker and it started to rain…. I shivered. It’s getting cold. It is still raining outside as I am writing this entry…

What are you doing right now? Or maybe what do you do whenever it’s raining? For sure, most of you would say that you would just like to stay at home and rest… it’s a bed weather after all…. =)

Me? Hmmm… I have this crazy imagination whenever it’s raining that I am driving a car, strolling in the metro… watching kids play in the rain while drinking coffee… ehehe. Yun nga lang, I don’t have a car! hahaha… yoko naman, mgtaxi at magjeep… hahahaha.

Speaking of playing in the rain, I can’t remember when was the last time I did it. Wala lang… it’s just that I’m scared to get wet with the rain now… I dont want to get sick… even the slightest fever… I just can’t afford to be sick with my condition…

It’s also nice to eat bulalo or any hot soup when it’s raining diba? Eat champorado with tuyo! yum… haaay… I think the rain makes me crazy… makes me hallucinate… hahaha….

But in reality….I’m really bored right now and I just spent the whole day in my bed cuddlin with my pillow. The rainy season makes me wish I have a partner. lol.

But overall, what I really like about the rain is that it makes me calm… it makes me feel peace… inner peace… I feel silence… I feel comfort…

How does the rain make you feel?

Eenie Minie

Posted in etc, Personal, pozzie life with tags , , , on July 24, 2010 by iamhivpositive

I feel dumb. No… actually dumber.

I was there, sitting in a chair… in front of a pc trying to solve a math problem. Slowly sweating… damn!

Actually, it’s a very easy question… very easy that a grade 5 student can definitely answer it. But no matter how hard I try to recall how we solved this before in school… I can’t seem to remember it.

I looked around. Should I use a calculator? hahaha. The evil in me is starting to manifest. I shook my head. I can do this! I tried solving it again… it’s just a simple fraction problem… (I know you want to know what the problem is but I ain’t telling it… lol – I will be more embarrased)

The exam has no time limit, but I’m pressured for time. I don’t want to spend 2 hours just answering a 20 item math exam! The exam was about fractions, decimals, percentage and series…. lol. Why am I writing this? hahahaha…. I’m blushing right now. Nakakahiya. hahahah.

I finished the exam after an hour and 15 minutes… and honestly, most of my answers are just eenie minie answers. How long has it been since I was out of school? Hmmm… 6 years? And now it seems like I can’t recall anything anymore…. of course except for the basic ones…. sad.

I used to be very good with academics… but I don’t know what happened now. I think I need to get a tutor. lol.

Envy

Posted in etc, friends, Personal, pozzie life, thoughts with tags , , , , , , , on July 20, 2010 by iamhivpositive

I saw a friend in the pantry of our office. He was buying iced tea from the vendo machine when I approached him. Let’s call him, RN, since he is also a registered nurse. As you can see now, most of my friends are in the medical field. We are working in the same company however I think it has been more than a month since I last saw him. I missed him.

There was a very huge smile on his face when he caught my eyes. His eyes were…. twinkling? I can tell he was very happy. Curious unto why the twinkling eyes, I ran towards him. He asked me how I was and why he hasn’t seen me around. I told him I am working in the early mid-shift and so he understand. I asked him about his smile and his blooming aura… he spilled that he is now seeing someone. I smiled. Atlast! This very choosy friend of mine finally decided to exclusively date someone. I asked him for details and as he was happily telling me everything… I felt something else… I was… envious?

The smile on my face disappeared but I tried to put it back. Why am I envious?

My wondering was interupted when he told me to look for the his date’s profile in facebook. I immediately obliged and checked it out since he said he also needs to go back and take calls. I went back to our tiny office and clicked on Mozilla and went straight to facebook. I searched for my friends profile and searched his date from there. He was right, he is cute. They will totally look good together, I am genuinely happy for him. Then, I felt it again. Envy.

I took a deep breath, I am envious because I know that It will take me a long time again before I can date someone. Especially in my condition…. honesty is my no. 1 rule when it comes to relationship or even dating and I think that It will take sometime… or maybe it will never happen…

I took another deep breath and cleared my mind. What am I thinking? Why am I thinking about dating and having a relationship again when I was just got out from one? I smiled. I guess I am just being a pessimist again. I shook my head. I have to be optimist. I know that in the right time, our path’s will cross… he might even be reading this blog right now… ( hahahaha! ) But if it will not happen, it’s ok… I am receiving a lot of love anyways… hehe. I guess I should just be contented with that… right?

If others can wait, so can I… lol.

let’s stay happy… negative vibes away! lol.

Vitamin E with Selenium

Posted in etc, Medical, pozzie life with tags , , , , , , , on July 19, 2010 by iamhivpositive

I was advised by Trese to take Vitamin E with Selenium instead of Myra E… so last Sunday, I went to Mercury Drug and bought a month’s supply of it. I also researched about it and here is what I found out:

Facts About Selenium

In order to understand the benefits of selenium, it is important to first understand the facts about selenium.

Selenium is a trace element found in soil, and is required in small amounts to maintain good health. It is essential for many body processes and is present in nearly every cell but especially in the kidneys, liver, spleen, testes, and pancreas.

Selenium acts as an antioxidant against free radicals that damage
our DNA. It is often included with Vitamins C and E to help fight against cancer, heart disease and even aging. It has also been used to fight viral infections and may even slow the progression of AIDS/HIV. Selenium also contributes to good health by promoting normal liver function.

Other benefits of selenium include the protection against heart disease, the protection against toxic minerals, and the neutralisation of alcohol, smoke, and fats. It can help to increase male potency and it also involved in the maintenance of hair, skin and eyes.

Remain In Good Health with the Benefits Of Selenium

Selenium may be useful in preventing cataracts and muscular degeneration, the leading causes of impaired vision or blindness in older Americans. It is also vital for converting thyroid hormone, which is needed for the proper functioning of every cell in the body, from a less active form (called T4) to its active form (known as T3). In addition, selenium is essential for a healthy immune system, assisting the body in defending itself against harmful bacteria and viruses, as well as cancer cells. Its immune-boosting effects may play a role in fighting the herpes virus that is responsible for cold sores and shingles, and it is also being studied for possible effectiveness against HIV, the virus that causes AIDS.

When combined with vitamin E, selenium appears to have some anti-inflammatory benefits as well. These two nutrients may improve chronic conditions such as rheumatoid arthritis, psoriasis, lupus, and eczema.

source: http://www.nutritional-supplements-health-guide.com/benefits-of-selenium.html

The Hotelier, Seaman, Engineer and Madam

Posted in etc, friends, Personal, pozzie life, thoughts with tags , , , , , , on July 18, 2010 by iamhivpositive

The rain started to fall…

I was riding the jeepney…

I was on my way to meet my friends… we are going to have a send off party for a friend who will be leaving in a few days for abroad. The plan was to have dinner and sing our lungs out in the karaoke. For sure, it’s going to be fun since we are going to be complete again… Like the song goes, I have a feeling that tonight’s gonna be a goodnight… =)

I went to the hotel where Hotelier (one of my friends) is checked in that night. He asked me if I could meet him first so we could go to the meeting place together. I’ve been wanting to tell hotelier about the truth. About me being positive. But whenever I try to tell him, there is always something that would make me stop what I am saying. I know that hotelier is going to be cool about it but I don’t know… I just can’t bring myself in telling him… hehe. Anyways, I went to the reception first and they informed hotelier that I was already in the lobby. The receptionist informed me that I could already go up to in room.

Honestly, it was my first time to be inside a hotel room… hahaha… I’ve been in SOGO and the likes but not in a hotel… hahaha… so I was really excited. Shallow eh? =) I buzzed the door bell and he let me in. He took a bath and prepped quickly and we are on our way to the meeting place.

Seaman was already in the meeting place and Engineer told us that he is going to be late since his mom asked him to do something. So, Seaman, Hotelier and I decided to have dinner already. After dinner, we went straight to the karaoke place… and after an hour, engineer arrived and after 30 minutes more, Madam entered the room and sang with us. And there we were, Hotelier, Seaman, Engineer, Madam and I… happily singing… if only B is here… then it would have been perfect…

After singing our hearts out and non stop dancing, we got tired and decided to grab a coffee. We went to our favourite spot, in Seattles Best in Greenbelt… (waaah, some of you might even saw me there already… hahaha) we did our usual talk about life, boys, health and love… when the clock strike 1am, we decided to call it a night and go home…

Last night was definitely a good night… no, a superb night… spending time with friends and laughing the night away… for sure last night as I can’t close my mouth from laughing, my cd4 is going up…

Thanks to all my friends who unknowingly helps me fight “it” by making me happy… hehehe… =)

Drugs

Posted in etc, Medical, Personal, pozzie life with tags , , , , , on July 16, 2010 by iamhivpositive

Today, I promised myself that I will go to Mercury Drug and buy a month’s supply of Vitamin C and Vitamin E… and according to Trese, I have to buy the Selenium E Vitamins since it helps increase CD4 count. I also told myself this last month, and the other month but I always forget to buy them. The doctor told me that I have to take these plus a multivitamin to help me strengthen my immune system.

Since I was a kid, I was never used to taking vitamins, I guess this is one of the reasons why I always forget on buying them… and maybe one of the reasons why I am slim. And when I do buy them, a month’s worth of vitamins will last 3 months since I always forget taking them. Honestly, I think I need someone to always remind me that I have to take them. I need to train myself since sooner or later, I will be taking retrovirals… (I’m just being realistic since I know that one day my CD4 will drop).

I don’t know why but maybe because I’m not feeling anything yet that’s why I don’t really feel I’m sick. I still feel…. healthy. I don’t want to learn my lesson the hardway that’s why tomorrow, when I go to the mall… I will really drop by Mercury Drug and will try my best to take my vitamins on a daily basis. I have to!

(I’m sorry I don’t have any interesting posts lately… nothing much is happening in my life… lol… just the usual, home-work-home routine… )

When Love Takes Over

Posted in etc, Music with tags , , , , , , , , , on July 15, 2010 by iamhivpositive

Hi,

Just want to share to you my LSS for tonight… =)

Nope, I’m not inlove or anything… I just like the way the song goes…

Goodnight,
xoxo,
JunJun