Promotion

I messed up. I screwed it up. I failed. Epic fail. I think this is going to be another of my down falls this year… I just let an opportunity for me to be promoted pass… =(

Almost 2 months ago, 2 of my lovely office mates decided to resign and look for a better opportunity with other companies. Although it’s sad that they are leaving, it has opened 2 a new door for growth for us, their assistants. After 2 weeks, the position was opened and so 3 assistants applied, including me.

I can say that I am a strong contender as I am the most tenured in the position, thus making me the more experienced one. I am actually assuming the position already as I am, most of the time, doing what our bosses were doing. So without hesitation, I updated my resume and submitted it.

After 2 weeks of waiting, we were given our schedules for the interview. Monday at 2pm is my interview and Tuesday at 230pm will be for my 15 minute presentation. After accepting the meeting request in my outlook, my heart started pounding. I suddenly became nervous. I am really bad with interviews, the last 2 interviews I had, I totally screwed it up and of course, I was not successful. I immediately booked meeting requests for mock interview with some of my bosses. I will definitely need some help with this.

Now it’s time for me to think of what will I teach them for my demo. It has to be something new according to the invitation that they sent us. And since I am into yoga lately, I decided to teach them office yoga. I know I am just a beginner and needs to be trained before doing it, but c’mon, this is just a 15 minute presentation so I told myself, why not! And there I was, studying and making a power point presentation about office yoga.

The day of our interview arrived and I was at first, not nervous. But I noticed that time seems to run so fast and with it, the beat of my heart started to join its rhythm.In a few blinks, it was already 2pm and off I was to the venue of my interview. The interview started and honestly, some of the questions, I find it easy to answer but the others, I was really lost. Epic fail!

The next day came and it was time for my presentation. I was more nervous this day than yesterday. But there I was… trying to be conceal the nervousness that I was feeling. I felt like luck was really trying to play with me because before I start my presentation, I experienced some technical problems like there was no internet connection in the PC, my presentation not playing and the video attached to my presentation is not showing!!!! As I flick my presentation from 1 slide to the next one, the more that my heart is beating so loud, my knees started to shake and my sweat starting to fall. There was even a time where in I don’t know what I’m saying anymore because I just hear my heart beat. For the first time after a long time, I got scared with presenting in front of people…

I went out of the room not satisfied with what I did… and I know they was able to feel it… this is more than just a promotion to me…this is a fight that I want to end up winning because it’s one way of me telling HIV that “hey! even though you’re inside me, I am still good!, I can still get promoted!” shallow right? But it means a lot to me….
the results will be given tomorrow… wish me luck?

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4 Responses to “Promotion”

  1. lots of luck!

    i hate presentations. and doing presentations for a promotion is even worse!

    career wise i’ve been extremely lucky (pre + era). Even though I hated doing this same exact thing you said, I sought out help. I found that finding the most cruel, perfectionist mock audience and interviewer helped (no friends!). get the most horrid ones. i tried that. i got murdered during my mocks. actual interview itself came out really easily. like super easy na.

    a british management consultant (who used to be chief operating officer of some big company) friend of mine once said that if all else fails. imagine that your audience/interviewers were in their underwear. i prefer them in the unsexiest underwear imaginable.

    and no. it’s not shallow. IMO we need all the victories we can get. hell. even without hiv we all need those victories anyway.

  2. i also sucks at interview, ive been job hunting for 3months and still no luck, maybe i wasnt that confident. now im doing business instead. god has plans for all of us, if its meant for you, he will give it to you. i wish you luck! ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. I agree… if it’s not for you, it’s not for you. But I want this one… actually, I need it.. .hahaha. This is a goal that I set for myself the very first day I stepped in this office… =)

    Thank you!

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