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Pride and Secrets

Posted in friends, HIV, Personal, pozzie life with tags , , , , , , , , , , on December 22, 2010 by iamhivpositive

It’s time. I told myself…

My friend, Madam, and I were walking along T. Morato when I suddenly felt the urge of telling him about my status. It was just so timely, it was gay pride and the theme is World Aids Day. I took a deep breath and tried to open my mouth but the words did not come out. I was… scared?

Madam is going to the States hopefully by next year and he told me that he is quite nervous about the medical examination that he is going to have. I asked him why and he said that the medical examination is ok, but he is dreading the HIV test! I asked why again and asked him if there are any possible risks that he might turn out positive. He said yes.

In the event, they was a van were rapid HIV testing is being conducted and I asked him if he would like to have it right there. He said no, he said he’s scared. I told him, it’s going to be alright and that I am going to be there with him, I even lied that I had mine just 2 weeks ago and there is totally nothing to be scared about. For the 3rd time, he said he was scared… I asked him why is he scared and he told me that he doesn’t know how he will react if ever that it turns out positive… Seeing the expression in his face stopped me from pushing in taking the test.

Our other friend, Hotelier, sent us a message informing that he is already in our meeting place. Yep, we decided to meet up and go out after I joined my first ever Gay Pride as part of the Yoga For Life contingent. He joined us in a bit and we decided to head to Starbucks. After ordering we took the table near the entrance so we could also see what’s going on outside. Madam started talking about an ex boyfriend who is trying to win him back after his long disappearance until we ended up talking about HIV again.

I don’t know what’s gotten into me but I suddenly blurted it out to both of them. They thought I was kidding then when they saw that I was serious, they became quiet and looked at me. The two of them have different reaction, Madam was a slightly emotional whilst hotelier was just very cool about it – I think. I explained to them everything, told them the story from the very beginning. How it all started. They were just listening… and I appreciated that. I even felt like crying. Madam tried to inject some humor in our very serious conversation to lighten it up a bit. I also smiled.

Our conversation ended with them asking me to go to a videoke and just belt it all out… which I did. I am happy that I have two more friends who accepted me wholeheartedly without judging me. I am happy that they support me and treats me the same. I am happy because I was able to talk about it again. I was happy that I am slowly becoming more open about it to the people around me. I am happy that night…

An Invitation – YOGA LOCA

Posted in etc, friends, Medical, Personal, pozzie life with tags , , , , , , on August 27, 2010 by iamhivpositive


You ready to Yoga with your Tanga? ^__^

I am inviting you guys to join YOGA LOCA… it is the YOGA for the FABULOUSLY GAY, and the GAY FABULOUS!

If you are interested… please feel free to contact the number in the poster….

Thank you!



Posted in etc, friends, Personal, pozzie life, thoughts with tags , , , , , , , on July 20, 2010 by iamhivpositive

I saw a friend in the pantry of our office. He was buying iced tea from the vendo machine when I approached him. Let’s call him, RN, since he is also a registered nurse. As you can see now, most of my friends are in the medical field. We are working in the same company however I think it has been more than a month since I last saw him. I missed him.

There was a very huge smile on his face when he caught my eyes. His eyes were…. twinkling? I can tell he was very happy. Curious unto why the twinkling eyes, I ran towards him. He asked me how I was and why he hasn’t seen me around. I told him I am working in the early mid-shift and so he understand. I asked him about his smile and his blooming aura… he spilled that he is now seeing someone. I smiled. Atlast! This very choosy friend of mine finally decided to exclusively date someone. I asked him for details and as he was happily telling me everything… I felt something else… I was… envious?

The smile on my face disappeared but I tried to put it back. Why am I envious?

My wondering was interupted when he told me to look for the his date’s profile in facebook. I immediately obliged and checked it out since he said he also needs to go back and take calls. I went back to our tiny office and clicked on Mozilla and went straight to facebook. I searched for my friends profile and searched his date from there. He was right, he is cute. They will totally look good together, I am genuinely happy for him. Then, I felt it again. Envy.

I took a deep breath, I am envious because I know that It will take me a long time again before I can date someone. Especially in my condition…. honesty is my no. 1 rule when it comes to relationship or even dating and I think that It will take sometime… or maybe it will never happen…

I took another deep breath and cleared my mind. What am I thinking? Why am I thinking about dating and having a relationship again when I was just got out from one? I smiled. I guess I am just being a pessimist again. I shook my head. I have to be optimist. I know that in the right time, our path’s will cross… he might even be reading this blog right now… ( hahahaha! ) But if it will not happen, it’s ok… I am receiving a lot of love anyways… hehe. I guess I should just be contented with that… right?

If others can wait, so can I… lol.

let’s stay happy… negative vibes away! lol.

The Hotelier, Seaman, Engineer and Madam

Posted in etc, friends, Personal, pozzie life, thoughts with tags , , , , , , on July 18, 2010 by iamhivpositive

The rain started to fall…

I was riding the jeepney…

I was on my way to meet my friends… we are going to have a send off party for a friend who will be leaving in a few days for abroad. The plan was to have dinner and sing our lungs out in the karaoke. For sure, it’s going to be fun since we are going to be complete again… Like the song goes, I have a feeling that tonight’s gonna be a goodnight… =)

I went to the hotel where Hotelier (one of my friends) is checked in that night. He asked me if I could meet him first so we could go to the meeting place together. I’ve been wanting to tell hotelier about the truth. About me being positive. But whenever I try to tell him, there is always something that would make me stop what I am saying. I know that hotelier is going to be cool about it but I don’t know… I just can’t bring myself in telling him… hehe. Anyways, I went to the reception first and they informed hotelier that I was already in the lobby. The receptionist informed me that I could already go up to in room.

Honestly, it was my first time to be inside a hotel room… hahaha… I’ve been in SOGO and the likes but not in a hotel… hahaha… so I was really excited. Shallow eh? =) I buzzed the door bell and he let me in. He took a bath and prepped quickly and we are on our way to the meeting place.

Seaman was already in the meeting place and Engineer told us that he is going to be late since his mom asked him to do something. So, Seaman, Hotelier and I decided to have dinner already. After dinner, we went straight to the karaoke place… and after an hour, engineer arrived and after 30 minutes more, Madam entered the room and sang with us. And there we were, Hotelier, Seaman, Engineer, Madam and I… happily singing… if only B is here… then it would have been perfect…

After singing our hearts out and non stop dancing, we got tired and decided to grab a coffee. We went to our favourite spot, in Seattles Best in Greenbelt… (waaah, some of you might even saw me there already… hahaha) we did our usual talk about life, boys, health and love… when the clock strike 1am, we decided to call it a night and go home…

Last night was definitely a good night… no, a superb night… spending time with friends and laughing the night away… for sure last night as I can’t close my mouth from laughing, my cd4 is going up…

Thanks to all my friends who unknowingly helps me fight “it” by making me happy… hehehe… =)